Know Yourself

Selfie of me @ Kaldi's with my friend Tommy

I skipped last week’s blog post. I told myself on Saturday that I’d write it. It came and went, so I moved onto Sunday. “I’ll get it done today!” I told myself again. And yet, no post. Here’s the thing. I was just being proud of myself for keeping up with blogging all summer as it was on my to-do list. I’ve wanted blogging to be my “thing” for a very long time now and at the very least, it’s a documentation of usually brief periods in my life. I was feeling good and thinking that I maybe could even handle this once a week at school. Nothing dramatic, just a little life update or whatever I’m obsessing over. I like to write anyway, so I could just put that time towards my blog.

I went to a bonfire with my friends instead of writing a post on Friday

Something I’ve also tried to do is write the posts in advance. I write when I have free time or inspiration hits. By Friday, all I have to do is upload the sucker. But last week, Wednesday sucked. No, not for any reason in particular. Nothing bad happened. I wasn’t even that busy! It was just one of those days where I knew what I should do and I couldn’t make myself do it. I lied around all day and surfed the Internet for things that didn’t really matter. It was one of the most unproductive days during summer so far. I don’t need to accomplish life changing things everyday, but I like complete a small portion of my ridiculous “to do” lists each day. Anyway, the nothingness dragged on a bit and by Friday I was back to checking things off and hanging with friends. Needless to say, I didn’t have time to write anything day of.

Solo shot of me @ the St. Louis Art Museum

I considered doing a double post this week. Instead, I put off this one that I am writing. I’m still very intent on this blog not becoming a hassle. If that means I miss a week so be it. I’m pretty sure, at this moment, there are no rampant fans that will demand much more.

So, lesson of the day/week: know how you feel about things. Avoid things that’ll stress you out. There’s no point in worrying about other things when you peace of mind may be at stake. Everybody has off days and it’s your job to know when you need that break to do nothing.